Nowhere All At Once
by Grace Bauer
Stephen F. Austin State University Press

The Words Will Keep Us Connected to Each Other: A Review of Grace Bauer’s Nowhere All At Once

by Darius Stewart

What is it about Grace Bauer that compels us so much to her work? How many lines defining poetry does she write that enable us to identify our own lives so viscerally because her words, with enormous empathy, eventually translate into poems of sympathy?  It’s as if she has intended to speak for us all with her namesake: grace.

What else about Bauer do we seek from her but truth and understanding? Her latest collection, Nowhere All At Once, is committed to poems of the ethereal; they are suffused with the heart of the human spirit pulsing as if it were a celestial being seeking so ardently to be one with the universe. These poems seem to have been written as if to galvanize us to forgive ourselves for what can be understandably conveyed as a failure to be fully present in the most grievous moments of life. These poems do not accuse; they trumpet a spirit of hope we can all use to reconcile our personal losses with a strident voice—one might even call it relaxation.

Whether through poems of actual death, or simply through journaling how the speaker “gets through the days” as a woman circumventing life in search of love, of healing from loss, and most importantly, of finding solace in the face of these conflated afflictions, Bauer navigates the bends in life still knowing there are many more roads to turn. She does so with a masterful orchestration of words one might feel compelled to read aloud (or record, even) just to hear the musicality possessing her poems—the syncopations, the Dickinsonian slant rhymes—but what is also remarkable is how she uses the ghazal’s form to create couplets resulting in endless possibilities of meaning.

Bauer can be considered an auteur: our lives are directed by her words if we settle ourselves into understanding how it is to feel dislocated. She takes her cue from luminaries such as Adrienne Rich, John Berryman, William Wordsworth, A. R. Ammons—and this is to name just a few mentioned epigraphically in this particular collection. Her words, too, suggest an existential crisis we have all felt. How do we navigate our lives even if we fail to understand what we can’t control? Do we reject the possibility that we ever can? Through sublimation, Bauer enlists her speakers to exhibit a sense of self-discovery—asking how we might “elicit the appropriate response” to life’s great mysteries—and with great aplomb, she proposes through her verse that emotional attachment and detachment aren’t always mutually exclusive. When she writes “we keep / the small talk going, hoping it will grow large, / become a song we’ll remember the words to, and that / the words will keep us connected to each other…” Bauer indeed does just that. The “small talk” is the individual poems that become the larger conversation, culminating into a book linking us all to the ubiquitous question: what is it we can do to reconcile the feeling of being present with the feeling of being also “nowhere all at once”?

Scratching the Ghost: Poems by Dexter L. Booth
Graywolf Press

Our Lives Happen Between the Memorable: A Review of Dexter L. Booth’s Scratching the Ghost

by Darius Stewart

Too often I’ve been asked, “what exactly is poetry?”

The people who ask this question tend to be intelligent professionals—which bewilders me—and some of them, understandably, ask because they are so young; they ask because they haven’t (yet) been exposed to poetry in their compulsory curricula—at least not enough—and even if they have been exposed, the majority of them don’t know enough about poetry except that it should rhyme. I attempt to explain to all of them that poetry is about language, how it becomes an exegesis of what it means to live with our perceptions of the world around us: a world withholding a vault of experiences that conjures memories of the past, present, and future that may take us days, months, or years to comprehend—or what the poet Jack Gilbert called the “highlights and interstices,” or otherwise that “our lives happen between the memorable.” That is what poetry does. Also, it makes us think too hard, some may say, not realizing that poetry is a tool that enables us to reduce our experiences to their most salient kernels of truth and understanding, an exit from a vacuum within which we are often held hostage without a vehicle to escort us to at least a minor comprehension of the meaning “why.”

I believe poetry is mining the vast terrain of “why,” and this is what Dexter L. Booth achieves in Scratching the Ghost. Constantly, Booth is implying “why.” Given the central theme of death and loss, it seems appropriate, though Booth eschews all moments of sentimentality when writing of such moments of pathos, instead engendering the harsh realities of existing within a world of hurt and longing for answers. He wants to know “why” and thus invites you on a journey of discovery that should compel you to stop and breathe and hold the book against your chest because, as I did, you’ll feel you’ve just been thrust into Booth’s world, as if you’d been dropped down the rabbit hole and must find your way out. And this journey of self-discovery should behoove you to exact all the resilience you may possess to exorcise the ghosts in your own lives because these poems so quietly strive to do just that. In fact, many of these poems imply: haven’t we all struggled to find solace? Haven’t we all, in potent pain, and in the spirited hope for acceptance of this pain, made a way to find our way back to our former (if not happier) selves?

To understand what it means to “scratch the ghost,” let’s look to Booth’s poem, “In Favor of Company,” from the second section entitled “Little Myths Initiated by Rain.” He writes:

I barely knew her then. We sat on a bench sharing a Parliament

and an awful postcard view of rocks polka dotted with pigeon shit,

old train tracks like a monolithic machine left

to watch over the edge of the earth, water so dark beneath

its shadow that it hurt to look into. It was hot that day

and the ground was bare with the stubble of grass

hanging over the pathway like frat boys on balconies

puking out their guts before dawn.

What engages me about this particular poem is the feeling of distance masking as a feeling for want. The speaker wants company, but can only describe the atmosphere rather than the human connection the title “In Favor of Company” suggests. So what is it the speaker “favors?” If the speaker favored the woman, then why not describe her? Why not write of her attributes that attract him, or even those that don’t? But it’s not about her; rather, it’s about the distractions with which one becomes so consumed he can’t navigate between what is present and what is past. It would be too obvious a trope for Booth to make this poem about a ghost inhibiting the speaker’s ability to relate to a woman he seems to be at least smitten by. They share a Parliament, but then the “sharing ” becomes this view that, yes, they share, but the focus is in the speaker’s distraction by his surroundings, where his mind wanders, if you read between the lines; he’s imagining something else deeper—a small but curious glance into why the speaker is so self-involved and cannot be truly present. And who hasn’t had that experience? Booth is both a harbinger and a carrier of grief we all have shared, yet he wants to support hope within this grief—a sentiment he writes in so many of these poems that bear witness to our concerns of “what if this happened to me?” These are poems of redemption. These are poems of commiseration with those who share similar episodes of dealing with loss—looking back with a poet’s eye and a humanist’s heart. This is what Booth wants all of us to empathize with when he writes of a speaker who is “scratching the ghost.”

In the final section, “Long Letter to the 20^th Century,” Booth writes in “Poem for My Body” a speaker that becomes almost self-elegiac, though the poem still contains the fibers of an ode—given the (subtle) passion with which the poem is written, though it is still a complicated poem to discern and categorize—which I take to be a wondrous feat when one considers the context of these poems of grieving through memory, of trying to reconcile grief, and finally of looking more inward in search for answers. Booth feels, in the end, it’s oneself that becomes the agent to one’s healing:

You are just a box. I knock against

you like a fly in a jar. When I am silly and crippled

you carry me like a penny in your pocket.

This is because you need me, maybe

for good luck or comfort. To have someone to talk to

when you are aching and alone. One day I will abandon you.

My name will be devoured by fog. You will rust

from the inside out, like a watch.

Time, in fact, will peel us apart,

sculpting your face with greasy fingers.

And I will be hair trimmed from the chin,

stolen by whatever can make use of what I become.

“[S]tolen by whatever can make use of what I become”—this, to me, echoes the anthem that readers will find so abundantly: a person grieving and, ultimately, refusing to have his life abducted by loss. And in these poems a book emerges fueled by so many moments that achieve subtle triumphs for their ability to parlay exuberance, so much that one comes away empathizing with those most human of conditions: feeling and surviving.